I , Christine is afriad , sad , depressed & on the verge .. .

I am not one tough cookie , oh no im not .
I love you with all my heart and i dont know anymore .
You make it hard for me to not love you..
I hear all these things and it's driving me insane
You are obviouslly hearing things also about me , it's life I know.
But can't we talk about it ? Can't we not assume things .
Really , I just need you to tell me what I did wrong .
I , Christine admits it .. I am very uber stupid , additional ugly + fat .
I l o v e you jf . ALOT ; and I dont want to lose you .
If these past days are leading up to something goood , God .
Please make it happen now , im like on the verge of killing myself
I was close enough , and I guess my " close enough " does not cut it for you .
Im sorry , not for whatever i did wrong since i don't know what it is yet
but im sorry for not realizing what i did wrong . Ugh , I just wish i knew .
I dont care how many tears I've cried about this anymore , it was all my fault.
All my fault , karma loves my company . I just wanna love you ..

Life is never going to be the same , without you by my side .
Our love we have , is something i never experianced .
Really . Although sometimes people question me , why do i love you ?
or that why am i still with you and how you treat me .
I dont complain , cause im afraid i'll lose you , that you'll walk away.
With you i get ..
real tears im crying , real feelings i am feeling.
And I now know how it feels , when your heart is thumping so quick
that you think it's just gunna pop out of your chest .
I get that feeling whenever I'm around you , it's a feeeling im lovin'
So baby , please dont go away <3.